That loving feeling is not that easy to forget. It takes time dear, weeks.. months... maybe years. Yeah, he said he will always love you and that he did not want you to ever leave him. But suddenly he turned cold and said he .. No, he didn't say it. He did not have to, you just knew that he had a change of heart.
Wanting explanations, you asked him. He told you what happened between the two of you were stupid... You heart just break into millions of pieces. Your heart aches like nothing you ever experienced before, you cried your eye balls out ... hurt ... pain ... lost ... sad because he's does not love you anymore.
Months gone by, you still feel the hurt, the pain and the sadness. 'Why waste your time still thinking about him?' You friend asked with concern and maybe with a bit of anger, because the guy hurt her friend.
Why?? You ask yourself over and over again, because you miss him and you still love him. That's why and that is natural, you don't just simply forget and let go. I think the greatest pain is the 'rindu'. Specially when the 'song' is playing on your cd player .. everything just reminds you of him. He has forgotten about you, most probably. But you're still sad and aching inside. Try to move on, hard?? Just try ...
Still cry? Well, just let it out. Hopefully you'll feel better. One day you'll wake up and say he's just not worth the hurt, pain, tears and heartache... But you still sayang and rindu, that's why it is hard to let go. Just give it time. It will go away.
You text and you would call him sometimes, just to hear his voice. Very soothing to the aching heart .. but you will have to stop doing it at some point. So you will stop hurting yourself. It sure hurt when he ignored your calls, did not reply to your text and only text when he needs something. But you would help when he needs it .. why? Because you still sayang. That's okay, kata orang, buat baik berpada pada, buat jahat jangan sekali. Your friends might say you're stupid, but only you can understand. After all, he was the love of your life. And maybe some time ago you were his.